There comes a time when, you stop for a second before going of to sleep and be grateful for all those things we have and had.
In the next second we mourn. Something we lost. And you let it out and you let it out and you let it out.
After a round of emotional exhaustion,writing in your journal after 10 months and inform her in 8 sentences in pointers about the significant things that went by.
And when you read the pages of the past before you write a new one you realize that going by situation one was very strong and focused.
I learnt from my the past entries that during all the chaos i was focused in a certain way regarding certain things.
Every day there is this moment when i rewind certain things in my head and i it feels like a big fat prank.
Sleepless nights, and very sleep nights. Sleepless with the thought of it, very tiring from all that emotional exhaustion.
His birthday is on monday and all i can think is how i use to look forward to december , it was my brothers birthday on 1st, 5th his, and 14th moms. It meant like a party month , cause every 4 days we were going to dine outside or have some insane food. As growing up in our family meant being obsessed with food or grow up to be a big time foodie. So birthdays was an excuse for an outing or indulging in food like anything. I use to be so excited on all the birthdays.. decorating to card making to gift picking.
I use to get my pocket money from dad and i use to buy him the gift from that. :\ . eheehe .
He made a file of all birthday cards we gave him. It was the sweetest thing of him to do.
I miss him dearly.
its really cold, isnt it ?
In the next second we mourn. Something we lost. And you let it out and you let it out and you let it out.
After a round of emotional exhaustion,writing in your journal after 10 months and inform her in 8 sentences in pointers about the significant things that went by.
And when you read the pages of the past before you write a new one you realize that going by situation one was very strong and focused.
I learnt from my the past entries that during all the chaos i was focused in a certain way regarding certain things.
Every day there is this moment when i rewind certain things in my head and i it feels like a big fat prank.
Sleepless nights, and very sleep nights. Sleepless with the thought of it, very tiring from all that emotional exhaustion.
His birthday is on monday and all i can think is how i use to look forward to december , it was my brothers birthday on 1st, 5th his, and 14th moms. It meant like a party month , cause every 4 days we were going to dine outside or have some insane food. As growing up in our family meant being obsessed with food or grow up to be a big time foodie. So birthdays was an excuse for an outing or indulging in food like anything. I use to be so excited on all the birthdays.. decorating to card making to gift picking.
I use to get my pocket money from dad and i use to buy him the gift from that. :\ . eheehe .
He made a file of all birthday cards we gave him. It was the sweetest thing of him to do.
I miss him dearly.
its really cold, isnt it ?
its' cold.. but i want you to be warm..
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